I hate the moments when I feel like I am spiraling out. When I can seem to grab focus. I am overwhelmed with emotion and need. Need for control, need to feel loved, need to feel wanted. I simply need. I want to shop and I want to eat. Mostly I want to curl up in bed and cry. Cry it all out. Cry until I have no more energy and every fiber of my being exhausted.
Today is one of those days. It is gloomy and cold outside. I don't feel ready for Christmas. I feel guilty for not being home with Olivia to take care of her while she is sick.
One of those days when I need to pull myself up from my bootstraps. Count my blessing instead of my dwelling on the negative. Be joyful in this Christmas season instead of being overwhelmed.
So, I am going to smile and push back the tears. I choose to be joyful. I choose to be inspired. I choose to see the good. I choose to be forgiving. I choose to be appreciative.
I thank God for today. For I am truly blessed!