Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Christmas 2009

Christmas 2009
Originally uploaded by BlueBirdQuilts

So much has changed in the last year. I can't believe how big Olivia has gotten and how much she has changed! I will have Christmas 2010 pictures up soon.

Please hang in there with me. I'm playing around with sending flickr pictures to blogger.... sorry if you get 100+ posts in your reader. Ok, hopefully it won't take me 100 trys!

Am I becoming a 'real' blogger?!?!

***Warning: This post is a lot of rambling!

Last night I laid in bed thinking about whether or not I should continue to try to blog. As my mind was wondering aimlessly I kept going to back to how lucky I was. I was lying in my warm bed, under a handmade quilt with the dog curled at my feet and I was safely tucked into the arm of my best friend. I named my blog ‘Our Blessed Life’ because that’s what I have, a very blessed life. These are moments I want to remember. These are the moments I want to share. This is an outlet for me. My blog is ultimately for me! There was my answer. Staring me in the face. YES I should continue to blog. Because I enjoy it. Because it’s not about how many followers I have or how many times my site is viewed. knowing that people read what I say and leave comments does make my day! What can I say I'm not perfect :) It’s about my ups and downs and being able to look back and see where I’ve come from and a glimpse of where I’m going.

My postings so far have been pretty random and sporadic. Words have never ‘flowed’ easily for me. I tend to have a hard time finding the right words. I have been blog stalking following for a while now. This has been both good and bad for me. I find a ton of inspiration for crafting, organizing, decorating, parenting and life in general but at the same time I have the little voice in my head telling me that I will never be as crafty, organized or interesting as the woman I’m reading about. I am going to stop listening to that voice and let my true self show through my blog. I didn’t start this blog to impress or even inspire for that matter. So here it goes, one of my resolutions is to stop being blog envious and intimidated. I may never be as ‘good’ as other bloggers, but I want to be the true me.

I recently read in a post that her life isn’t perfect. Her house is messy, her kids are wild and she isn’t always the best mom, but her blog is a place where she can be clean, organized and pretty. Her blog is her sanctuary. I wish I would have saved the post but I didn’t so of course I am paraphrasing and this is just what I took from what she said. So if you are the one who wrote this blog post, I would love to quote you correctly so leave a comment! I think these are words to live blog by!

So for now I’m here to stay. I will blog what I want, when want. I won’t not blog because I feel it won’t be as inspiring or interesting as another blog. If you finished this long drawn out blog, I thank you for sticking in there with me. If you didn’t and skipped to the end I don’t blame you, I probably would have done the same thing! :)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Things you should know if we are going to be BFF's

So I feel like I have to post this because I've been a total blog stalker and feel ridiculous if I have spent hours too much time reading and commenting on other people's blogs but not doing my own. Talk about peer pressure!

Little Miss Momma is having a link party. So many fun bloggers have linked up and shared fun little details about themselves.

So lets just jump in and get this over with... if you pass on reading I completely understand. I don't find myself very interesting either!

I love reading about other people, how they parent, and craft. I often become blog envious and don't blog as much as I would like. I have to keep reminding myself I didn't start this to impress!

I hate doing laundry. It drives my husband crazy!

I am a hoarder collector. It comes from being a very unorganized person. What can I say, I didn't inherit organization skills.

I only iron when I sew.

Maybe I need an ironing board that looks like this...

I love taking hot showers. I know it was hot enough when I come out looking like a lobster.

I tend to share way too much information. Once I get on a roll I just can't stop... (you have been warned!)

I try to keep my life as drama-free as possible. Part of me being non-confrontational.

I tend to run late and often am dishevelled. I am definitely not someone who has it all together or at least appears to.

I can go weeks without shaving my legs. I know gross right! Thank goodness hubby doesn't seem to mind it most of the time.

I never shave the top half of my legs because my skin is very sensitive and gets crazy bad razor burn. Even if I shave down. If I'm wearing shorts I will trim it with an electric razor. If not, I don't worry about it. (See I told you I would share way too much information!)

I love Mandarin oranges. I think I've eaten at least 5 every day this week.

I am a procrastinator! Major procrastinator.

I can't watch scary movies. I can't even watch really suspenseful TV shows. I have really bad dreams.

Dave Matthews Band is by far my favorite!

I could nap and sleep in everyday.

Does this not look absolutly divine?!?!

I love when O stays at grandmas. I know she is well taken care of and loved and I love being able to sleep in and not feel guilty about not being there first thing in the morning to get her.

I have the best mother-in-law. I haven't always felt this way, but she has been a so good to me this last year. I don't think I would have survived without her! I don't think I thank her enough.

So there you have it... a few little tid bits about me. Head on over to the link party and join in. It's addicting!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Joy over sadness

I hate the moments when I feel like I am spiraling out. When I can seem to grab focus. I am overwhelmed with emotion and need. Need for control, need to feel loved, need to feel wanted. I simply need. I want to shop and I want to eat. Mostly I want to curl up in bed and cry. Cry it all out. Cry until I have no more energy and every fiber of my being exhausted.

Today is one of those days. It is gloomy and cold outside. I don't feel ready for Christmas. I feel guilty for not being home with Olivia to take care of her while she is sick.

One of those days when I need to pull myself up from my bootstraps. Count my blessing instead of my dwelling on the negative. Be joyful in this Christmas season instead of being overwhelmed.

So, I am going to smile and push back the tears. I choose to be joyful. I choose to be inspired. I choose to see the good. I choose to be forgiving. I choose to be appreciative.

I thank God for today. For I am truly blessed!