Monday, January 17, 2011

Finding My Happiness

I crave happiness. I search for that warm and fuzzy feeling. Sometimes I spend so much effort searching that I don't realize joy is staring me in the face! I shop and eat to feel content instead of looking around and being grateful for what I have. I have to constantly remind myself that I don't need a thing. Everything I need I already have is within my arms reach. This is my happiness!

I don't know what I would do without my husband. Steve has been such a support for me and I can always count on him being my rock. He has been with me through so many trials. He stays strong through the good and the bad. This isn't to say that we have our moments or that he doesn't drive me crazy! Let me tell you, he drives me crazy!!! I have grown so much in the last 7 years with him and I look forward to many more years of raising our family and growing together. There is no one I would rather be with!

This is the man I get to go to bed with every night and wake up next to every morning! I'm a lucky girl!!!

This picture melts my heart. He is so in love with our little girl. He is the father I always dreamt about. I am so glad Olivia will have such a strong dad to always count on. My step dad is amazing so I don't want to take any due credit away from him! But there is nothing like the bond between a daughter and her father!

How can I not smile when I see this picture?!? I can hear her laughter and shrieks! She makes everything right with the world!

I received this picture from Katey this morning. She started watching Olivia today!!! She was ready and available. What perfect timing!!! I am not going to worry about her going to school and leaving me with a day without daycare. I will take care of it when it gets closer and trust that God will provide all that we need. Even when I doubt He continues to provide! Olivia is very happy to reunited with her good friend Parker Dog!

My last post was about finding daycare and I was so frustrated. Katey came over on Thursday and we had a wonderful visit. It was so nice to catch up with her.

So here is to continued prayer and much happiness! Thank you for all your thoughts and well wishes!!! They mean so much to me!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Oh how I HATE finding daycare

I am on the hunt to find daycare for Olivia.

This sentence makes me cringe. It makes me want to cry. It makes me want to quit my job.

I know that I have very little to complain about. I was able to stay home full time with Olivia for almost her entire first year. She then went to a close friend who only had one other little boy about the same age. Due to pregnancy complications and a new baby we had to find someone else to watch Olivia. Steven's aunt stepped up and offered to keep Olivia, which turned into his cousin coming to our house and watching her. Mind you this has always been 3 days a week because I am fortunate enough to only work part time.

Now that Steven's cousin is close to having her baby she will no longer be able to watch Olivia and his aunt will be helping her so she doesn't feel comfortable keeping Olivia for the three days a week. Are you still with me? It's been a little crazy and confusing... I know!

So I'm in the situation I dread. Finding someone who will love my baby. Finding someone who will give her the attention and the structure she needs. I know daycare isn't a bad thing. But it's finding a daycare that I trust.

I wish with all my penny's, on all the stars that I could stay home full time. There is just no way. It just isn't feasible right now.

I talked to my friend who originally watched Olivia and she is going to start school but will try to rearrange her schedule to be able to keep her on Mondays and Tuesdays! SCORE!!! When she texted me that she could possibly work it out I had tears run down my face. Yes I was at work! I couldn't stop them. Just the thought of having my little girl be with someone that I COMPLETELY 100% trust is beyond words. There is no price I wouldn't pay! (OK hopefully she doesn't read this... just kidding! I would be forever indebted to you!)

Please pray that we find what is right for us and what is best for Olivia. Until then I will be an utter mess!

I needed a smile and this picture always makes me smile!

Monday, January 3, 2011